So…I made a terrible mistake. Like so many January enthusiasts, I had reached my fingers to grasp more than could possibly fit in the palm of my hand. Not intentionally, of course. But then again, we never think it’s intentional, do we?
Of course I can handle this! It’s nothing. Won’t take much time.
“What is it about Januarys that make us think we can take on the world? But instead we end up losing bits of ourselves…”
Why does January have this hold on us, rioting our emotions, making us feel energized with all the I-Can-Do-Anything’s and Nothing-Can-Stop-Me’s? So high she lifts us, that when we but stumble just a tiny bit, we fall with full force, bruises to our egos and frustrations in our hearts.
Yes, January is topped up with the most positive and unrelenting of goals, but when we do not fulfill these goals, we fall even harder than if it was December or March.
Last month, I prioritized and journaled, and would you believe that I didn’t even lift a paintbrush? I limited the things I could do and needed to do so that I could focus on the things that were of utmost importance. I even thought of an exciting theme for February – a next step after prioritizing, a next step to reaching my goals of starting my own business.
But as I was nearing the end of January, I was begged to reconsider, “Is this next step even wise?” A dreadful cold had struck me down for the second time in a month, and stress was wearing my patience down. Without meaning to, I felt myself falling short of tolerance and becoming somewhat irascible.
My “next step” was looking a lot bigger than I could possibly manage, and I knew that despite wanting to take bigger steps to make it to the finish line faster, it isn’t what my body, mind, and heart needs at the moment.
Often times, I want to leap towards the greater things, but there are so many tiny wonderful things I miss along the way that one only notices from lighthearted strolls and thoughtful pauses. It is these small walks and momentary rests that I need to refuel and build myself up once again. The finish line will be there regardless whether I run or walk.
These small steps may be indiscernible to untrained eyes, but they will make a large difference in the way I run the course. For now, it is Slow & Steady that will carry me further than Hasty & Unbalanced.
So for February, my theme will be “Little by Little,” and I’ll be making my way to a big destination by taking little steps. Since I don’t have hours to spend on the big projects I want to do, I plan on using the minutes I have to work on little ideas that can become something bigger in the future.
5 minute ink doodles in my journal.
15 minute scribbled stories on scraps of paper.
Bits of blog posts pieced together during stolen moments of calm.
Photos and trinkets collected to inspire when I feel like I can’t do anything else.
It may not seem like much, but I do believe that little by little, I shall travel far.
PENNY FOR YOUR THOUGHTS:
Many times we feel like we are taking a step backwards, but what if what we’re really doing is pausing in our tracks to take a deep breath and plot our next move?
What do you do when you need to slow down and take a breather? How do you stay sane and focused when there is too much to do and too little time?